Of Blood:Poetry - Chapter 21 - Suicide

21 - Suicide

The world has beaten you
hurt you, tossed you out to die.

they have ignored you
left you in the shade to cry

misery is your only emotion
pain, and growing numbness

you want to make it go away
you want to run and hide

you dont like the outside world
you want to stay inside

for cowardess surpasses courage
and tears take over rage
you want to end it all
rid the world of your figure
and your figure of the pain

you draw your blood
in hopes the pain is greater
great enough to stop the rest
to numb it all away from yourself

but before you draw that sharpened knife
for the final stab
think about the kind of things
you might ever have

before you tug that triggar switch
to send the bullet through
think about the ones out there
who possibly could love you

before you tie that final knot
on the rope tied to that hook
open your eyes one last time
and take a good hard look

before you elix your throat in poison
before you flood your life
think about a world of truth
a world rid of strife

before you do yourself away
stop a minute to think in a way
i know you never thought before
open your mind to what you are stopping
open your heart to what you are begining
and open your eyes to the world you are living

so before you finish the job
stop
think about what you might be throwing away
think about what you may gain from living

you were given a life so that you can live
the only purpose of death is to run your time
but like a clock on the cracked old wall
you cannot speed it up just because you want the hands move

you have to wait
make
the best of the time that is left.

so before you do
what i know you want to do
think about what you could do
should you not do it.

i came up with this so that i could read it whenever i was in doubt that i wanted to live. and lets face it we all feel like it is too much at one point or another. but i suppose when i read this it helps me talk myself out of it. i dont know that it can do the same for any of you, but anyway.