it hurt to see your final facial expression. and to know that you weren't going to be alive anymore i secretly loved you and you seemed like you didn't care as much as you do now. all this hatred welled up inside all this madness and lust was for you. you never seemed to care and you never seemed to relate to anything i had to say i just basically, shuned you and you shuned me right back. i never realized how much you needed me most, on the inside, but on the outside, you hardly ever showed it.