October 4, 2007 -
ShadowMantis
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I'm not the only person whose ever felt like this, right?
Um... sure... this came out WAY creepier than originaly planned. I had actually inteded for this to be funny, but noooo, my twisted little self goes and turns it into this.
Explination time! For a long time i had been in what one of my friends so kindly named my "dead phase."
Since the third grade i haven't been attracted to anyone, which kind of creeped out my friends, and they would keep telling me things like "OMIGOSH We should get you a boyfriend!!!! 8D" or asking me stuff like "What do you think makes a guy cute?"
Man those questions got annoying. But eventually it seemed that cupid had nothing better to do than come and pick on me. Suddenly i just woke up one day, and realized how many people i DID find attractive, either physicaly or actually lovingly.
But after a while it really started to get me depressed because it seemed that all the people I was interested in would never feel the same way about me. It hurt for a long time, it still hurts a little, and it makes life that much harder, but it's started to lift from me. I started feeling a lot better, and now a little more consious. I could feel true emphathy for my friend to, who had gone through a similar thing earlier.
On the feather of each arrow i put the first letter of the first name of the people i found attractive, the dark arrows were just "puppy crushes" and passed quickly, but the unshaded arrows are the feelings that still follow me about, they're the people i think i might actualy be in love with...
D, J, S, H, B, S, and T are the letters on the arrows incase your wondering and if you can't read my hand writing it says
"Dear Cupid"
"You can have your arrows back now"
"-Wayra"
It actually originaly said "You can have your damned arrows back" but I desided to edit it out.
so yeah, i understand this picture is strange and probably few people even care, but I just wanted to see if I was the only one out there who's ever felt like this, and as stated in the title, this is a VENTING picture. I wasn't shooting for anything great, just something that would make me feel better. No harsh criticism please.
also, i couldn't really think of a better category for this so... yeah.