Hello. I'm Teddie. I turned 16 today.
I thought, a girl's sweet 16 is suppose to be the best thing that ever happened in her life. Where friends all come together, wishing her a happy birthday. Sing song, or maybe, even each other them punching her 16 times. It could've been like that. But it didn't. Nothing happened.
Today is December 20th. I wake up at 8:45am. No call. I take a bath. No call. I'm on my computer for about 2 hours. No call. I go out to Denny's for breakfast with Mom and Sammie. No one left a voice mail. I start playing the Sims 2. Someone called.
"Happy Birthday!" ~Dariush.
Yay! My first birthday call! But Dariush can't come over cause his mom wants to be a big meanie. He told me he'll make it up to me.
An hour later, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I'm comming over to give you your present!" ~Jasmine.
Yay! I haven't seen Jasmine forever! I can't wait. She arrives and Jesse is here too! Yay! I open up the present. IT'S A TEDDYBEAR! AND IT'S MY FAVORITE COLORS! Thank you! After about 30 minutes, they leave. They're going to Jasmine's daddy's birthday party. Our birthdays are on the same day.
Teddie got mail. It's a check from her Grandma! Teddie got money! Yay! So far 2 presents!
After that. Nothing else. Just me, gimping that pic above for 7 hours. Is that all? Is it?
I have never cried so much, ever since dad died.
I don't care about presents or money. I don't care about birthday parties. I don't care about all that. All I want to hear is "Happy Birthday Teddie" Those 3 words and I'm set, and happy.
You don't have to give me a present. You don't have to buy me something. You don't have to draw me anything or do anything for me. I just want those 3 words.
This is not directing to you most guys. This is mostly directing to most of my real life friends. It's just 3 words. You can pick up the phone and call. You don't even NEED to call. You can fucking text me and I'll be happy.
I'm so upset and dissapointed today. Am I that unimportant?
After today, I feel like most of my real friends don't care about me. Please tell me you forgot. I rather hear you guys say that you forgot, even if you really didn't give a shoot.
"Teddie, shut up. You're just being selfish."
Just asking for 3 words is selfish? I don't give a shoot about your presents. I don't give a shoot about the parties you throw for me. I just want to know if you guys care enough to say "Happy Birthday Teddie."
"Teddie, shut up. Other people don't even celebrate their birthday."
I don't celebrate it. Do you see me with a birthday cake and balloons and shoot like that? No. frack parties. I want to know if my friends care about me. That's all.
"Teddie, shut up. You just want attention."
If I wanted attention, I'd throw a party and invite everyone I know, except you, cause you're being a dumbass and you obviously don't give a shoot, so frack you and your whole family to hell and hope the maggots eat your brain last, cause you brain is nothing but pure idiocy. Anyway, I do want attention, but not so much. I love being alone. And I love my birthdays being alone, but I LOVE when people remember and call to say those 3 words. Or even IM or text me those 3 words.
I'm a paranoid person. I constantly suspect everyone of secretly talking about me behind my back. I never know the truth, who knows? Dawnya and Tekka might be talking about how annoying I am, Luis and Annie might be talking about how stupid and short I am. Anyone. I'm paranoid, and there's nothing you can do to prevent that.
I so suspicious of my friends, that I don't even believe the words that come out of Dariush's mouth. "See? I remembered your birthday! Did Luis say Happy birthday, yet? I don't think so." That's a dead give away. He only said it to earn my trust, after he stole my work and posted it up as his. That's something I can never forgive him for.
Jasmine is another story,but it kinda hurts a little on the inside. I know it's her dad and all, but to avoid all this, I thought maybe it could've been nice to invite me too. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD AND TEDDIE!" two birthday cakes, 3 families. Oh fun and joy. Maybe today won't be so dissapointing.
Luis, I understand you forgot. Stuff like this happens. People forget. Or they just don't care. I hope you're really telling me the truth, that you just forgot.
Annie, I worry about you the most. Are you still mad about me ignoring you during school before winter break started? It was yours and Luis's fault to begin with. I can't fucking help that I'm short. I CAN'T fucking control it. If you REALLY didn't bother, and I hope you just forgot, you brought this upon yourself.
There's so many other people I can just go on about. But I'm just focusing on these people.
That's all I got to say.
In conclusion. Not really my worse birthday, I had worse, seriously. But I think the biggest bummer about all this, is that dad wasn't here with me.
I miss you, dad.
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I actually contemplated going away, but that thought is over. There is still so much to do, and not just for
I hope, in this past, things will be better.