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Sunrise by spiceXisXnice
Sunrise by spiceXisXnice


Have you missed me?

I suppose I owe you all an explaination. I have been away for a long, long time. And I have missed you all. I have, however, been very depressed for a long time. To give you my livejournal entry (a very good explaination):

I don't know what's happening anymore.

Only two things haven't changed.
1. My father's a prick.
2. My stepmom's a dog.

Everything else is confusing and scaring me.

1. My older brother is joining the Air Force. He may go to Iraq. I won't see him for four years. He may go overseas. He may die. I don't understand why he's doing this.
2. My older sister and I are suddenly friends. I have no idea when this happened. I know, this isn't something I should be angsting about, but it's weird.
3. My little brother is still an annoying plebe, but he's also getting more mature. I don't understand why he has to grow up: I like him the way he is.
4. My little sister is getting bigger, too. She's walking, she's talking, and I don't get to see her every day. It's a little weird seeing her and seeing how much she's grown.
5. My mom's a teacher. I never get to see her anymore in the mornings. She sometimes doesn't get to say goodbye.
6. My social life is insane. A 'slutty' friend, a brilliant friend (who claims she's not), a friend and her boyfriend's on-again-off-again relationship, and a friend who I want to be more than a friend who won't pick up the phone when I call him from out of state.
7. I'm changing. Hormones, a changing body, craziness. I'm not even going to pretend I don't hate God for those little tricks. Why does he do this to the XY chromasome?

My family's crazy. My friends are crazy. My life is crazy.

I don't understand. Life needs a manual.

So, there you have it. Shortly after posting this on livejournal, my sketchbook (full of unposted drawings and a comic I was working on) was stolen, and it still has not been recovered. [insert sad violin music here]

I was very depressed for a while, sort of like a spiral. I began giving up on things: my singing, my acting, my cello, my art. I became very withdrawn. I stopped calling my friends so often and I became particularly snarky with my dad. Essentially, I hated the world.

On Tuesday morning, I awoke very early (don't ask, I don't sleep well). I pulled out a new sketchbook and tried to draw for a bit, but all my drawings were very depressing. I instead took a book outside and sat on the porch and read (or, I tried to). I kept thinking about my life, and I started crying a bit. I looked up and saw that it was twilight time. I wated a bit, then saw the sun break out, and the sky was completely lit.

You know how you can see something that completely hanges your frame of mind? That sunrise did it for me. It was like an epiphany: my life was like the sunrise. There was twilight, when the sun is so temptingly close, but it is still dark, then the sun bursts in, lighting everything. So, I decided it was high time for my sun to burst in. I went inside and sketched this, watercolored it the next day, then let it dry. I think it turned out rather well.

I have gotten a lot brighter (back to my cheery self ^_^) and have decided to keep up with my friends more. I'll be posting more drawings soon.

Elijah's back, baby!


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Tachzaruu on July 9, 2007, 11:19:08 AM

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Tachzaruuits good to have you back, and im sorry to hear that you've been going through so much. But i agree with TEK, and i admire your ability to be able to find the light in a situation. i know that this sounds really sappy and stupid, but i really liked the way you concluded; it was very poetic and insightful. as for the picture, the sunrise is beautiful, and the silouette(prob spelled wrong) of clay iss very imposing and bold in constrast to the soft, pale colours of the sun rising. overall it creates a very pleasing effect. good luck with everything, and im working on your request, so i should be done with that soon. Please do keep in touch; it'd be great to chat some time ^^

spiceXisXnice on July 9, 2007, 1:40:16 PM

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spiceXisXniceYay! Yeah, I'm over it now, getting WAY into my writing. It's all good.

And I'd love to chat with you some time! ^_^

Koji45 on April 22, 2007, 3:32:49 AM

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Koji45Yay! I'm glad your back. ^^ I'm sorry that life wasn't going so well for you. But i'm glad that your feeling better. Actually life kinda sucks for me at the moment but i don't really feel like talking about it and i'm sure you don't want to hear about it. I live in a state of confusion, at least thats what it feels like lol. I'm sorry, i'm rambling , i should shut up now.
Really Awesome job on this picture. I Love it. *FAVES*

spiceXisXnice on April 22, 2007, 7:46:56 AM

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spiceXisXniceI've discovered that it's actually better to talk than ignore. I you want some support, PM me! It's always good to have some support.

Sonicxgrl11 on April 21, 2007, 10:48:43 AM

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Sonicxgrl11w00t! your back!!
*hug* i know what its like to have a family member go to iraq
my cousin is in the air force :C
but im glad your posting again!!! (that sucks your sketch book got stolen mine got stolen then the dog who stole it turned it in to the art teacher for projects and stuff Dx then i got her caught so good things will happen from the bad! :D

spiceXisXnice on April 21, 2007, 1:34:14 PM

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spiceXisXniceYeah, I never found mine. I accidently left it in 1st hour when I got called out for a parent-teacher conference (yikes) and I came back in 3rd hour and it was gone *shakes fist at sky*

However, me mum got me a new one, and I'm reworking the comic from memory. *shurgs* C'est la vie, c'est la guerre. I still want to kill whoever stole it. >:[


TEK on April 21, 2007, 11:41:19 AM

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TEKindeed, life and living and the jist gets pretty tough after a while. and growing up doesn't help either. nor does change. everyone gets these down times, but living through them just makes you a stronger person for the path to come. trust me--i've been through it too many times to count.

but it's great that you can just think positively like you did there. seriously, that's fantastic. i can't think of anyone i know that would think like that; most people just go and cry and whine in their rooms and stuff. =D congrats, you win at life!

oh, and... livejournal FTW! o_____o [whoots; clings to lj]

spiceXisXnice on April 21, 2007, 1:31:05 PM

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spiceXisXniceYay! I win at life!

And I'm sorry I've been rude with you on my profile. I was just...y'kow, workin' through some issues. Thanks for being patient with me!


SkyGirl on April 21, 2007, 11:54:20 AM

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SkyGirlwow i hope everything gets better
and if u need someone to cheer u up iam always here 4 u
and this picture is great *gives u hug* i missed u

spiceXisXnice on April 21, 2007, 1:29:46 PM

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spiceXisXniceAh, thank you. As I said, I feel much better now. And I remembered that you guys love me! *heart*

Thanks, Sky!


TEK on April 21, 2007, 11:41:52 AM

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TEKand nice pic, it came out very very pretty! xD