bored as hell. *pokes u* i know u won't probably read this *Stickes tounge out* *howls* and also i'm just playing around untill i call u *kisses your cheek*

mine

Hey, it's me, Kai. Just going around telling all my fans that I can only be found exclusively at Kairukurumi.deviantart.com from now on. If you want to check up on new art, talk, or anything else, I'm only going to be uploading, etc. there. Just tell me who you were on here so I'll know who you are, okay?

Wow, thats real long! lol. Sorry theres so much! "-_- ^^'

Okay...well last year I...there was a guy that i li- no...that i loved...he supposedly loved me too, and it was a big happy relationship(even though I wasn't, and I'm still not allowed to date)...it lasted for nine months. He cheated on me to go for this girl in my school who acted and dressed like a slut, but wasn't really. I don't like her but anyways, she always ended up spending a lot of money on her and her friends, and always thinking that he'd get some in return(if you know what I mean)All he got was a kiss on the cheek, so he dumped her and came crawling back to me. I took him back cause I was in love. He said he hadn't cheated on me, cause we weren't technically dating. But he started going with her, right after he promised he wouldn't go with another girl. It went on like that from then on. not going with other girls but arguments, and fights and everything between is kept going on and off, like a puzzle, taking it apart, only to put it back together again, but he didn't know that my heart was reacting like the puzzle too. So finally, on the first week of school he got mad at me for simply not standing up for myself and started ignoring me, and I got fed up with it, and for once I didn't take him back. The puzzle was left unfinished, but my heart was being peiced back together, not by him...by someone else. Like I said, I had moved on. I fell in love with one of my friends in our group that always sits in a certain hall at lunch. All our friends do that. His name is Steve, he's 18(yeah i know 4 year age diffrence) and he was one of the sweetest guys I'd ever met. He'd been there for me a lot, and he'd made me feel better about myself. Also once when my ankle was aching, he helped me walk cause it really hurt for me and he could see it, and he massaged my ankle too. It was so sweet of him, and it didn't hurt to walk anymore. I was in love again and my heart was back in one peice. Then, of coarse SMASH! Steve had to leave our school. He was dropping out, because his family wasn't doing that well with money. It hurt but that wasn't the only thing that broke my heart again. The day he told me was his second last dy and that was the day I got my first kiss too. He kissed me too. My friend and I were spinning, and she accidentally let go, and I hurt my knee, and my friend was like, "Steve get over here! Your girlfriends lips hurt, come and kiss them better!" And I was telling her to shut up and stop embarrasing me. Steve was just like, "Come here" so I did,all bold, and I though "He won't do it" and then he just kissed me. I stood frozen with shock for a few seconds, and it took my mind five minutes to register. All I hear was my other friend giggling and babbling about something like I was blushing, but my mind was a blank and still registering, so I just automatically told her to shut up, not that she did, cause she didn't. The friend who told him to kiss me was standing there, mouth open, eyes wide with shock. I was so happy. Anyways, after that I was almost late for class, so Steve was walking me there. (I wasn't late though) And I dropped hints that I enjoyed it. So before I went into class, he kissed me again. The next day was his last day there. He leaves after lunch, but in the morning when I saw him, I gave him a really cute good-bye card I made him.(It was actually just a sheet of paper with writing an pics) Everyone thought it was adorable, and he stared at it for about 5 minutes, and then he was like, "Aww, your gonna make me cry. That's bad, no making me cry" (the last part he said as a joke) So I just laughed a little and glomped him^^ But I couldn't believe he liked it that much. His voice was shaking a bit and he actually looked like he could cry. He kissed me 2 times that day, when the bell rang and after lunch. 4 times in total^^ And after lunch when he left in my last 2 classes, I cried. Infact once I had to ask to get out for a minute. Now I haven't seen him in almost 2 months. I really miss him, but we can never hang out. We were getting really close and now we're getting further. All that, is what broke it again. Ryan still loves me too, and he was so surprised when he found out I wasn't coming back to him. He now hates Steve and life, because I'm not in his much anymore. A friend i have online loves me too, and I can't love him back cause I couldn't handle an online relationship. I need to see the person everyday. Plus at semi-formal, my friend asked this cute guy we were talking to to get a picture with me, and he said yes, and for the picture, he put his arm around me out of his own free will. Now my fried and my cousin (they WERE dating at the time and they came too) both think he liked me. So now my situation is, there are 2 people in love with me, one person who supposedly likes me, and a guy I like. PHEW! That's the whole story. Everything you missed while you were gone. What do ya think? PM me or just write on my profile, you haven't told me about what happened with u lately!^^ I luv ya sisa!^^
Your sisa,
Angel-chanXOXO

Hey!^^ Hope ur on again soon^^

ashers o.o?


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Ashley!! We haven't talked in forever and I miss you!! I'm crying right now cause I just saw these messages and...it says your back...I miss you, please talk to me! I need to talk to you again. i've been looking back on the messages we sent each other. I thought when you stopped coming on to FAC, that something might have happened to you. I miss you so much and have to tell you EVERYTHING, cause recently I've expeirienced love, heartbreak, love again, and I'm not sure how it'll turn out this time...I'm in highschool now, and I wanna tell you all about it, tell me anything you need to talk about, I'll listen I promise. *Hugs you tighter than ever* I'm just so glad your back cause I don't think I could bare losing another friend^^

You really don't think well of guys do you? I can't really blame ya though......The past year or so hasn't been the best to you has it? Sorry,.......for everything I did. I am sorry, and I'll only say it once, becuase you aren't getting me to beg. I am sorry, that's all I shall say about that.

OMG! *Dashes towards you and glomps you to the ground and kisses you madly* I've missed you SO much!!!! We haven't talked in over a year?! Why did you leave FAC Ash?

Do you seriously mean 10am in the morning! I've got to go to school! I can manage 10pm, but not am. I REALLY hope you meant 10 PM at night, becuase if you mean in the morning, that's impossible for me!

Like I said earilier,......I'll be here if you need someone to chat with.......always

I feel so unwanted right now... it`s nice to feel wanted...no... needed. sam.. cheated on me... i feel like i`m going to break down... if you promise to love me, i can`t say no... but right now.. i can`t stop crying.... (*hugs you tightly*) promise you won`t ever go again.... please... i can`t let go again.. i need you so much.... you have no idea how long i`ve waited.... but... i love you so much... but i thought i`d only have you in my dreams..

thank you for accepting me...

love, ash

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You sent that to me, I'm just reminding you of that beuatiful PM. Look, I LOVE YOU! YOU an NO ONE ELSE I ACCEPTED YOU, I've been in love with you since the first day I met you! You said "LOVING TAKES COURAGE," Well, I'm being couragous, I love you, for you! Not becuase of anything else! I love you Ashley M. Crane!

I don't know if you didn't recieve the other three messages, but this one is crucial. I'm going to leave FAC if I do not get a simple reply, I'll leave in one week starting today. (Today's date is June 18,2007) I will leave on Sunday the 24th of June. All I want is a simple reply from you, just to know you're still there and to know that you perhaps read the previous PM's. That's all I want, a simple PM saying, I'm here, or whatever.........just please tell me that you're there.
see you later hopefully,
Love Jordan.........that's all I have to say.........

I love you, please come back to FAC.......

I love you, honestly I do. Please come back to FAC and we can chat and perhaps if you would like, be like we used to be..........boyfriend and girlfriend.

I love you, please come back........I need you. I do miss you, please come back to me.

I love you, please come back........I need you. I do miss you, please come back to me.

Please,..........come back. I know I screwed up a year ago, I'm sorry, truly. But even you don't deserve to be unhappy, so please if anything come and visit. Many people left messages, emails, etc. They all just want you to come back,.......Watching from the shadows is sometimes the best thing to do, but please,.....don't. I do truly miss you, you meant alot to me, and honestly you still do. I was a fool to give you up to Sam, THE GIRL, sorry, but I'm still sore over that........Please, find it in your heart to come and take me away from my pain.........I miss you.......
Sincerely,
Jordan

Please, I'm begging you, Please just stop by my profile and say hey or something. Please.......I need you Ashley Marie Crane......Please, will you be my girlfriend,..........please I miss you soo much..........I'm lonely........

Also,.........I would like my second chance please...............I suppose when you see this, you'll shrug it off like you did the other ones, but.........that wouldn't be fair to me,............be fair..........please.......

HEY!, You came on here recently! I've watched your Last Updated colum and the Last visit column. They have changed, from my last visit! You've been comming when little to no people are on haven't you!..........I know your game, you aren't gone,.......I knew you weren't..........see you later, or next time, or whenever,........but i WILL see you again............proimise.

Hey Ashley, I really miss u... Will u ever come back? I really miss u. By the way, I wrote a lot of poems. I'm writing one 4 u right now and I hope u like it ^_^ I still luv the pic u gave me of sailor moon on the glowing moon...T~T I miss u...T~T

but....I also think you left at a good time.


Sam went through some rough shoot after you left- I'm kind of glad you weren't there to see it.

*hugs*

I hope you're happy now. because you're a great person and deserve to feel the same way you help others to.


love ya girly <33