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Chapter 21 - Imagine And Forget

Rie's life isn't like she wants it to be. She doesn't feel loved or needed. Till somebody shows up who claims he needs her

Chapter 21 - Imagine And Forget

Chapter 21 - Imagine And Forget
Chapter 21

,,Rie, do you mind if I tell you that...” Seth begins. He is sitting on the end of her bed, his hands folded in his lap and his head looking the other way. ,,...that I...eventhough I remember everything... I still can't remember having parents.”
Rie is sitting at her desk, catching up homework. She wasn't behind in the first place, but she wants to keep being ahead of things. She straightnes her back a little. That is kind of strange. It's also strange she can't remember anything about Seth at all. Nothing, not the slightest thing. And it's embarrasing.
,,You can live here.” Rie says. ,,We told you, you can live here, mom and dad will ask for custody.”
Seth lets out a little sigh. ,,Yeah, but only if my parents can't be found. And... well, don't you think it's weird there isn't anything about me known? Absolutly nothing? No name or number, nothing about me from before I became invisible.”
Rie doesn't say anything, but stares blankly at her book. That was really weird indeed. The police tried to trace down information about Seth, but couldn't find the slightest thing. Nothing about him missing, nobody looking for him. For the law he really didn't excist.
,,Well, you are registered now.” Rie mumbles. ,,They took care of it, so stop whining.”
,,But I'm not done whining yet!” Seth cries out. ,,I really don't have any memory of parents! The only memory I have... if of you! But not about the time when Aye was born! I can see vague pictures of you in my head from when you were much younger!”
Now Rie does look over her shoulder to face Seth. ,,Maybe we lived in the same neighbourhood or something, I don't know!”
,,No, we didn't!” Seth says. ,,Your mom said you met me first when you ran away after Aye was born! That is the first time I can recall playing with you, being close to you! But I do know I was with you when you were younger too! I don't know how, but I just know it!”
Rie gets off her chair and walks to the little window in her room. She gazes out on the street. A little boy is playing all by himself, but he is having a lot of fun. He is talking to his imaginary friend.
Did she ever had one of those? Imaginary friends? It would have been fun, to have somebody with you who would play with you always.
,,I know...” Seth mumbles. ,,When you were 4 years old... and this boy told you you couldn't play with them, because you were stupid.”
Rie is only listening half, she is observing the kid down the street closely.
,,...and you looked at everybody's faces, and they didn't dare to disagree with that one boy. Even that 'friend' of yours didn't dare to stand up for you.” Seth continues. ,,...you started to cry. And they... they teased you with it. They pushes you in a puddle of mudd and ran away. Nobody helped you, except for...”
,,...for you.” Rie ends his sentence. She holds her breath. She had forgotten about that memory. She had pushed it away, didn't want to think about the bad things. If you wanted to act like a grown-up, show your parents how big you were, you couldn't suffer from those teasings.
But now the memory slowly sneaks back. Her intire schoolperiod had been like that. Nobody really liked her. She had a few friends, but nobody who would help her, when she was once again the bully's victim.
The mudd had drenched her new dress, the dress her mother had made. She had spend so much time on it to make it perfectly right. She had made it exactly like Rie had wanted it. Back then, her mother was hers only, she got all the attention she wanted. Her mom loved her more then anybody else. When the dress was done, she wanted to wear it to school, but her mom thought it would be a waste. She didn't want the dress to get dirty, but in the end, Rie got her way.
She wore the dress to school and she was so proud. She felt like a princess and let it twirl around her constantly, looking at the dress widen and wave on the wind.
But then she was pushed in that puddle. Not only laughters of the kids were hurting, but also the fact that the dress which was made with so much love and care was ruined. Her special dress was covered in dark brown mudd.
And then this little boy appeared out of nowhere. Blond hair on his head and though there wasn't any wind, his hair tickled his forhead. His bright blue eyes looked at her with a kind expression and he held out his hand, told her that she just had to forget about those stupid kids. That he would play with her and always be there. That they would go to her mom together and explain what happened. That everything was going to be okay.
Rie breaths in a lot of air. And now that she thinks about it, Seth was not in her class, not at her school. Nobody could see him or play with him, nobody could....
,,Imaginary friends are only meant to be seen by one kid.” Seth says, a sad tone in his voice. ,,They are meant for comfort, for support. They aren't selfish,... like I was.”
This can't be true! Is she losing her mind again? This is too much! Rie shakes her head and pushes the window open with the palm of her hand. Seth has to be a real person! He can't be an Imaginary Friend! He just can't be, because...he's here! Everybody can see him right?
,,W-where are you going?” Seth asks, aware of Rie's leaving. She has climbed through the window and running down the driveway. ,,Don't run away!” Seth cries out and he quickly follows her.
Rie passes the boy, who is still playing with his Imaginary Friend. No, Seth has to be a real person. She didn't make him up! She isn't the one who created him! That can't be! It's not logical! Those tings only happen in stories and fairytails! She is too old to believe in those!
Before she is aware of it, she has arrived in the park. Being out of breath, she bends down through her knees and inhales the fresh air in her lungs. It's bright daylight and very hot. Summer is a murder, every year again she wished for the clouds to cover up that big fireball. But her wish was no match against the wishes of all those other people who loved the sun and her warmth.
,,Rie! Please!” She hears Seths cries from afar. He can't run fast due his condition and it takes a long time, before he finally collapses down on the grass besides her. ,,Don't...run...”
,,You... you knew you were...” Rie says, feeling the tears whelm up slowly in the corner of her eyes. ,,You knew...you were... Imaginary...”
,,Only when I...when I ...became visible again.” Seth breaths, resting with his hands on the grass, his head bowed down. ,,I...I can't help it.”
Rie clenches her fists. ,,I don't get it! I don't get it how you can be my Imaginary Friend!” She hisses, tears now dripping down her face. She has a big urge to punch Seth in his face. She can not only believe it, it's also hurting. The person she has finally fallen in love with, turns out to be a person she made up herself. He isn't real! Isn't she capable of loving somebody who is real?
Suddenly she gets thrown over and her hands pinned down above her head. Seth is sitting right on top of her, his chest heaving up and down. ,,Don't get mad at me! DAMMIT!” He cries out. ,,I didn't do anything! I only wanted to be with you forever!”
,,You did do something!” Rie yells back, ignoring the stares of people, who were, in first place, enjoying the sun in the park. ,,You weren't meant to become real! YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE HERE!”
,,You asked me! You asked me to!” Seth's hands around her wrists tightnen their grip. ,,You begged, you prayed, you cried! You wanted me to be with you! You wished for me to be real, okay? And I wanted to do everything for you! I wanted to be with you too!”
Rie looks at him through his tears. She is so confused. This is too weird. How could he have turned into a normal human being, who everybody could see? Her mom even photographed him! She saw pictures of him! How can he be Imagined? And how can he be real?
Seth's voice has calmed down down, it has become soft whispering nobody else but Rie can hear.
,,Imaginary Friends aren't meant to become visible. They are only supposed to be seen by one child alone. And you had me, you imagined me. We were happy together, when nodboy liked you at school, I was there. Nobody knew I was there, except for you. I was yours only. And then things got bad for you, because your brother was born. You felt so miserable about Aye, about your parents only seeying him and not you, that you begged and prayed for me to become real. So I would always be with you when you would grow up.”
As Seth tells her this, Rie slowly starts to remember it. It's like he's telling her a story and she is looking at the pictures that go along with it. She is spellbound to Seth's words, like a toddler his to his bedtimestory.
,,I was selfish, I didn't want to fade away once you grew up. I wanted to be with you, I wanted to do anything for you!” Seth says, staring straight into Rie's eyes. ,,And for some reason, right here in this park, I became real. I became like you. I played with you at your house, I followed you everywhere. But when you had to sleep or go to school, I hid in the park. Nobody would allow me in your class, since nobody else knew me and I didn't have any parents who could register me. And I didn't have any excuse to spend the nights in your house, like before. It was different, I missed being with you constantly, but I was real now and I could grow up with you.”
,,Then... then why did you.... go away?” Rie whispers, tears still streaming. If things were so good, why did he leave? If he would have stayed back then, everything would have been different. Everything would have been okay, right?
Seth lets go of her hands and helps Rie sit up. The people around them have decided to ignore them and are all back to their silly little lives, not aware of the weird things Rie and Seth are discussing.
,,Because of you.” Seth mumbles. ,,You told me that you wanted to be a big girl. That you had to show your parents you were all grown up, so they could be proud. Having an Imaginary Friend, even though he had turned real, wasn't something that fit a big girl. You told me that I had to leave. That I had to go back being invisible, but not come back to you again.”
,,I couldn't do anything. From one moment to the next... I had become invisble again. Not because you really wished for it, but because that's the way things go. The laws of Nature, I think. I was punished for being selfish and I was made to forget about you. I knew nothing anymore, expect for being alone in a world where nobody would notice me. Ofcourse they never did before, but before I was with you. Now I was completly alone, with not even one memory left of that one person who once could see me. And you were made to forget about me and everything that ever happened, untill I would tell you about it again, I guess.”
,,It isn't....right.” Rie mumbles. ,,There is no way I could have done such a thing.”
,,You didn't do it. You requested it.” Seth says. ,,At least, that's what it feels like. It's weird. I can't tell you that there is a God who made this happen, but there was something. Something that makes everything happen. That gave us our way, that punished me and made you forget me.”
Rie wished she would understand it all clearly. Not that his story isn't complete now, but... it's so hard to believe that he really was her Imaginary Friend. That she infact made up her own boyfriend. It really makes her feel so miserable, because... doesn't this say that there isn't a person born somewhere who was waiting to meet her and share the rest of his life for her? Because, aren't you born with the reason to meet that one person one day and share your lives together for ever?
You aren't supposed to make your own special person up, right?
,,And I'm affraid Rie.” Seth confesses. ,,I'm afraid that...that I will become invisible again, that I will have to forget about you again, but I want to be with you. I don't want to go away anymore.”
Rie looks at Seth, who now has finally bowed his head down and broken their eyecontact. ,,I don't want to feel that intense lonelyness anymore, Rie. Please don't make me go away.”
She made him up, but still, he is sitting in front of her, being so real. She can feel her heart beating in her throath. It's so unreal, but still. She touches his face. He is there for her. And though she feels like she wants to run away from this confusion, she also feels that she wants to be with Seth.
She really wants him to be around her for ever, she doesn't want to be alone anymore, just like him. People around her may like her eventually, like Marten, but maybe they aren't for real. Seth... he is the closest person to being real to her. The idea of Seth going away, not being with her, is hurting too much. She was so upset when he was wounded, so afraid he would leave her behind. She doesn't want to feel that again.
She bends towards him and softly kisses him on his mouth. He looks up with his bright blue eyes, looking slighlty suprised. ,,Are you... staying with me?”
,,Yeah...” Rie replies. ,,...Yeah, I am.”

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_theater_freak_147 on August 21, 2006, 10:55:48 AM

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_theater_freak_147That was beautiful. Great job! ^^

StephAlanPoe on April 24, 2006, 3:26:29 AM

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StephAlanPoeAwww. Now this story is over, I don't have anything to look forward to after school... I give you A+! Just like YaoiPrincess's Ray Fanart story called "Sunday Morning After". Check it out, people, it ROCKS!
Love the story, made me cry.
;-)

Rikus_Lover_MINE on March 26, 2006, 9:13:13 AM

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Rikus_Lover_MINEYAY!
omg
Is this the last chapter?
Is this it?
NO MORE?!?!?
nuuuuuuu!!!!
Well Kiki-sama must be busy with new Ray pages and everything, so maybe Kiki-sama donsn't have time to update on here....
OR MAYBE IT REALLY IS OVERZ!!!!!!

axemsir on March 9, 2006, 7:28:19 PM

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axemsiris this the end of the story? i love it anyway ^^ nice twist, he being her imaginary friend and all!

Miss_M on February 19, 2006, 12:38:54 AM

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Miss_MWow!!! This is the best story evah!!! i luv it soooo mutch!! To bad its the end...

TailsNejiswife on January 30, 2006, 11:14:26 AM

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TailsNejiswifejust so u know i read the whole thing and that was one of the best stories i have ever read and i hate reading long stories unless they are really go ( of coures) for 1 out of 10 i give it a 1000000000 *i have no clue what number that is* tell me wen u find out *u don't have to*

WishGranter on December 1, 2005, 6:16:26 AM

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WishGranterWow! Great Ending! Man... I wish my Imaginary friend would become real for me =(

Just jokin'. MAN is there anything you CAN'T do well, Pie?

I counted up the number of pages this would be(counted on my computer) and it came out as 93 pages!! Congradulations!! *claps for pie*

mandy94t on November 23, 2005, 9:09:51 AM

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mandy94tGood choice,Rie.

Koikaji_Saru_the_Wierd_O on November 7, 2005, 9:18:18 AM

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Koikaji_Saru_the_Wierd_OBeautiful! I really love it, Pie-sama, you did a wonderful job on this, keep up your excellent work!!