Chapter 1 - Doll

I sat in the corner,
Broken doll that I was
Twiddling my fingers away into dust
Wondering when my day will come
 
My hair falls apart like a fragile leaf
Under the burning sun
My clay skin peels and cracks,
Revealing the hollow me beneath
My clothes to turn utter mold,
I reek of death and decadence
 
And still, I sat there in the corner
Waiting for that day to come
Hoping, pining, never soon to be dying
Just waiting, endlessly waiting
 
And then you came along
Eyes a faded gold of springs long past
Skin so fair but taut over a will of bold
Hands strong but delicate to the weak and weary
 
Me, that little doll, I rose my heavy head and stared
My porcelain skull rattled with a shattered mind
Filled with brainless wishes
Thoughtlessly hoping for my day to come
 
And you seated yourself next to me
And smiled in only a way you could
You battled my empty gaze without faltering
You touched my chipped skin without a flinch
You stroked my brittle hair without a frown
 
And you made me wonder in my thoughtless head
Did I really want my day to come?
Do I really want to be spirited away to nowhere fast?
Does someone actually want me here?
Does someone actually care?
 
And you gave me a kiss on my ruined round cheeks
You caressed me like no other did
You repaired my broken shell
And gave new shine to my once filthy hair
…you filled my limp body with hope
 
And then you left me there
 
For I was not the only doll in a corner
Worn out and wasting away
I was not the only doll at all
You took it upon yourself to look after us all,
Each one that you found rotting here and there
Be they high on a hill or under a chair
 
But for a moment, you made me special
I was no longer ignored
No longer wishing for my certain day to come
And take me away
I felt loved
 
And now I’m jilted
Where do your eyes fall upon,
Where does your heart lie?
Not that I wanted it, though I would have liked
You gave me back my mind, now I must wonder
 
Why help me
Only to tear me asunder?

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