R.I.P Sebastian.
Blog Entry: R.I.P Sebastian.
Blog Entry: R.I.P Sebastian.
yesterday, i found out that one of my old friends had commited suicide.
it's so weird. i still havn't wrapped my head aroung it.
it's like i just want everybody to pop and and say "haha just kidding we wern't being serios". but i know that it really did happen.
me and sabastian were never really super "close" friends, and i had only hung out with him for maybe a year or 2, but he was just a special person, and no matter what you could talk to him about anything, even though he was always on something and fracked up all the time. he was so weird and creepy, but like in a funny way, so it was always fun to hang out with him.
i don't know why we origanally stopped hanging out with him. i think it was just mutual and natural, like we just did it not really realising it. most of the time sebastion was always doing drugs, which was okay i guess because we had all been doing it too, but as of the last year he started doing harder drugs like meth, and he was getting into more trouble. i hadn't probably seen him in a year, and i seen him again maybe 2 months ago or more and he didn't look very good.
everyone thought that he was drugged out when he did it, but we had found out the true story last night. apparently his grandpa told him that if he wasn't going to go to friday night detention, he was going to send him off. sebastian told him that he wasn't going to go because he was going to kill himself. the next day his grandpa looked in his truck, and his 12 gauge was gone, so he told one of his workers to go check on sebastian at his house. the worker found sebastian lying on the kitchen floor, and just thought he was sleeping, until he seen the blood. sebastian had put the gun in his mouth and shot himself.
it's just so weird and surreal. like i never thought i would be in a situation like this. even though i wasn't close to him, the times that i had with him were for some reason kinda special, and everyone that knew him felt that same sort of connection with him.
even though i'm athiest and don't beleive in god, i still think that maybe he went to a better place.
i just wish he knew how many poeple miss him now and think of him.
it's so weird. i still havn't wrapped my head aroung it.
it's like i just want everybody to pop and and say "haha just kidding we wern't being serios". but i know that it really did happen.
me and sabastian were never really super "close" friends, and i had only hung out with him for maybe a year or 2, but he was just a special person, and no matter what you could talk to him about anything, even though he was always on something and fracked up all the time. he was so weird and creepy, but like in a funny way, so it was always fun to hang out with him.
i don't know why we origanally stopped hanging out with him. i think it was just mutual and natural, like we just did it not really realising it. most of the time sebastion was always doing drugs, which was okay i guess because we had all been doing it too, but as of the last year he started doing harder drugs like meth, and he was getting into more trouble. i hadn't probably seen him in a year, and i seen him again maybe 2 months ago or more and he didn't look very good.
everyone thought that he was drugged out when he did it, but we had found out the true story last night. apparently his grandpa told him that if he wasn't going to go to friday night detention, he was going to send him off. sebastian told him that he wasn't going to go because he was going to kill himself. the next day his grandpa looked in his truck, and his 12 gauge was gone, so he told one of his workers to go check on sebastian at his house. the worker found sebastian lying on the kitchen floor, and just thought he was sleeping, until he seen the blood. sebastian had put the gun in his mouth and shot himself.
it's just so weird and surreal. like i never thought i would be in a situation like this. even though i wasn't close to him, the times that i had with him were for some reason kinda special, and everyone that knew him felt that same sort of connection with him.
even though i'm athiest and don't beleive in god, i still think that maybe he went to a better place.
i just wish he knew how many poeple miss him now and think of him.