Jacobs gay

So me and Jacob Decide to meet (to make out) at lunch on tuesday. So then lunch time roles around and i text him to ask him where he is and he said his friends stole him and he wouldn't be going (BIG SUPRISE, RIGHT??!). so basicly, he same thing happens wednsday, and later that wednesday night we start texting eachother, And hes like, " Oh well i don't wanna 'hang out' with you at school because there will be some assholes staring at us and making us feel uncomterble, i wanna go somewhere more private with you" and i told him that i couldn't really leave the house at all (he made some big plan of meeting me at food source, idk...that seems weird...) so then i text him back asking him, "isn't there a private place we could meet at school?" and he's like, "yeah there is actually, its not great but it'll work so lets meet there tomarro." so i agree, even tho i don't really expect it to happen. BTW, the place we're going to meet is this behind this old baseball feild, thats completly away from where anyone can see u. But then lunch time roles around and i kinda just leave class and walk over to this place, (not the baseball feild) but this kinda hidden place where i can see the baseball feild. i wanted to sit there and wait for him to get there first just to be sure he was serious) So i squint a little (it was pretty far away) And i think i see him over there, immediatly after i get a text saying from him "where r u?" So i reply "coming" and walk over. so i finally get there and he's sitting, leaning against the back of the wood on the batting cage, so i sit next to him and he gradually scoots next to me and puts his arm around me, and soon awkward conversation starts with a lot of long pauses inbetween, and im facing forward and hes looking at me (remember we're side by side) and i very slowly turn, and before i even face him he leans and OH GOD was it my mistake for my mouth to be closed. so his gross mouth begin to...kiss(?) And his discusting flavored tounge just decides to rape my tounge and well yah... you get the picture. and it was getting gross, and out of hand.. and i didn't really know what to do so i just kinda pulled away... So then he suggested that i sit inbetween his legs so we could cuddle more and i did, and there was neck kissing, ear nibbling and so on, which wasn't that bad btw and then the bell rings to go to PE, and he's like, "no hobz... just cut please?" and i'm like "naw im goin sorry" (i have PE with him anyway, i guess he just wants us to have more "alone" time) so then i start walking away and he's just just sitting there still and hes like, "what am i suppose to do??" and i'm walking still about 30yards away and i yell without looking back, "why don't you just come with me?" Then i hear a HONK HOOOONKi turn around, its security. And in my head i'm like, "OOOOHHHH SSSSHHHHIIIIIIITT shoot shoot shoot frack shoot" and Jacobs face is like, "oh shoot" and so the security gaurd calls us both over to his little car and asks us wat we were doing over there(he means like drugs) and jacobs like, "no sir we were just hanging out honest" and the securitys not buyin it, so he starts checking our backpacks and i'm scared as frack cuz i NOE Jacobs got some weed in there but thankfully the gaurd doesn't see it. and then he checks my bag but i got nothin to hide so it don't matter. but the gaurd still looks paranoid, so i do this, "i'm an innocent little girl" attitude and i'm like, "oh! well i'm sorry i didn't know we were aloud back here, but honestly we wernt doing anything wrong sir!" But honestly im SCARED AS frack, not of getting in trouble because of jacobs drugs, but having to explain to my parents what me and jacob were doing. but the officer buys it, and lets us go. so as im' walking to PE with jacob he's like, "frack dude, i was HELLA frackIN scared." and im like "Me too" and well that was about it.... too sum it all up, my first kiss was a bit of a disapointment. but at least i got to see miguel at PE that was kool :D