day 1

Dear reader

So today was my first day back to school, and I have to say, it was not that bad. No one really talked to me, which I am use to being alone, it's not a huge problem, but I don't really mind because I actually get to see my boyfriend a lot in the hallways and between classes! We act like we are best friends so no one will know, and it's working for the most part. I am happy I get to see him.

I also have homework for the first day from History, and I hate it. History is something I was never good at and probably never will be. I just hope next year I get a different history teacher. There are 3 in my school. I also have homework in science, but it's just a paper about myself and who I am.

The teachers are the same as always, which I don't really care. The students is what bothers me because they are mean. To be honest they did not really bully me that much today. I think maybe they grew up. I am not going to talk to any of them because it's not that i have a hard time talking to people, but because i still don't trust them. 

I do have one true friend. Her name is Jessica. She has been my friend for all my life, but in the last 2 years we have gotten super close. One of her old friends, Gabby, got into drugs last year and over the summer and they stopped being friends. I have 4 classes with Jess and I actually have 2 with Gabby...Gabby kept staring at me. It kinda worries me. I have anxiety and I am worried she will try to hurt me. 

I do have gym this year, and I am happy it is only for a half a year. I have to change clothes into my gym clothes, which is going to be awful because I am a guy and guys like to slap each other on the butt for some reason. It makes me very unconformable. Also I have the fact that I have to change in front of people. It's so weird. I am not a very active person and I am kinda worried that I will be made fun of for that...and my weight.

I actually think today was one of the best first days of school ever. I didn't come home crying myself to sleep and I didn't really feel alone in school. I just mainly felt tired. And besides Gabby's stares, I really felt good. I am an awkward person so in my new classes I probably acted and looked like a fool. 

It was really nice. I just hope tomorrow is better.

Love

Marco