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Posted by: QueenofRed
Posted: May 16, 2010, 10:54:41 PM
Mood: Disappointed
Eating: starved 4 some honesty
Drinking: the h20 of relization.
Currently: not really trusting anybody.
Listening To: Filth in the beauty.
heya ppls who is not reading this lol
so I guess I'm just sittin here on sunday writin a blog and drawing stuff
I dont really want to be in a happy mood right now lol my mom is always makin it sound likeyou know no matter what theres some long damn solution or you have to end the freindship, but
why cant we just vent? XD
why cant we just be pissed off ya know? sometimes mom, maybe you put a little to much pressure on me and maybe i dont live up to anyones damn expectations so EXCUSE ME
maybe she wishes she could have given birth to some1 better huh? like 1 of my freinds,S, they always seemed to get along really well always talking and stuff, and she seems to have her stupid pretty emotional writing so maybe mom could have a writer like she wanted instead of a stupid old manga artist who climbs trees and has stupid 2 colored eyes like me
maybe if S was her kid she would always know exactly what to say or do, and maybe she would be a good big sister instead of stupid old me who never knows what to say to make anyone happy, and doesn't do braids, maybe C would like an older sister who can put her hair just perfect and teach her how to wear make up.

lol who knows what it was like if what the oujja board said was true about them bein sisters
maybe she was happier or trusted men more, or wanted to go to school.

if thats true i wonder if i had any siblings, they didn't ask bout me XD
wonder if i was related to some1 i know now.
that would be wierd lmao

think about it if what they say about all that reincarnation stuff is true you coulda been like your neighbors brother XD

i dont know anything about religion or if what they say is true about the whole dying and coming back to life as a different person
but i can't help hoping it is, i mean to me it sounds like it would be better to get to go again at life instead of living up there for eternity, i would get bored :P
but its sunday and its getting late i suppose my mom will tell me to go to bed soon, not that it will matter
i'm not sleeping

wish i could lol but i'm not gonna sleep i can't XD
i don't know if its all those horrible sad angry thoughts runnin around up there that will cause me not to sleep or if i can just stare at the ceilin again or what

another weekend passed lol i kind of wish i spent it at keloree and maisys.

ok I guess I'll come back here in the morning i gotta pretend to sleep~
or waste this computer.