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and i give you 2011

Blog Entry: and i give you 2011

Blog Entry: and i give you 2011
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Posted by: QueenofRed
Posted: January 21, 2011, 1:12:06 PM
Mood: Numb
Eating: food what food?
the suckiest new year of my life.
so for... the um lets see 22 days i have lived through 2011
frankly i would like to go back to 2010 =.=
it begins with the computer
bob...
had it
kicked the bucket, stopped charging rolled over and died in his pathetic hole.
was a piece of sh*t rather than a computer anyway DX
inconvenient bob
>.>
i saved most of what was critical work into my scan disk, but i lost lots of things that were on that computer, including photos, pictures i drew, manga studio debut 4 (u cant play it on a mac) fable, my japanese learning program (meanwhile i fail japanese from my class)
Mabinogi and probably every screenshot or video i ever took of it,
oh and lets not forget
my photo album from halloween.
thank you bob
for finally passing away. and taking everything i ever saved, with you.
you son of a b*tch.
>.>
and now here i am
starting to fail every class i joined
because I JUST FOUND OUT
that BEFORE YOU CAN PASS ELEVENTH GRADE for these courses
you have to complete
not some, not most
but all of the dinky assingments from every class
from the 100 point essays, to the 12 point discussions about who lives where
... even tho we all live in washington.. everyone knows it just rains
i'm being told i'm either going to fail geometry or have to bring it into next year
i cannot afford to do either of those things,
and so
understanding that this is a difficult time in my life for me my body responds appropriately
and i get so sick, i cant stop blowing my nose or coughing to save my life.
oh no but lets not stop here
2011 gets better!
because this all comes together in one big epic freakin climatic weekend and guess what?
my freind is having a birthday party, I get as sick as i can be, and dont wanna do anything but sleep, that old guy at the meetings tells me that i only have so many days to get done and well.. finish everything , and my boyfreind tells me he is moving from the country next tuesday...wont be back for a longgggg time or else not at all (in which case i will chase him down... dont tell him that)
Tuesday
.........
I'm not going to the party.
I'm sitting home and working my @$$ off.
why does everything in life that ever made you wanna tear your hair out happen all at once and not just one at a time huh?
its just.. not fair..
man
i was so sure it was gonna happen, i was all ready to meet him and like "oh i better lose a billion pounds and learn how to drive really well so i can make it to seattle"
and i was so damn confident that for once, just once i was going to have someone i could spend my time with , and that i could talk to my freinds about,(he coulda met em this summer if he wanted) and i was gonna at least get kissed once.
or maybe hey if not a kiss at least get to go on a date for once
no literaly no exxageration here.
once in my life ><
i know its really lame of me and all that, and complaining is worthless.. but i havent felt more helpless then this since i watched my sister fall on her bike and i saw her just sitting there on the road not even moving, and i couldnt do anything, i had to leave her to go get my mom
I was useless
useless man useless
i don't want to be like a bella or any whiny little tart like that but
i feel awful
if there was anything i could do in the world it would be to give that dude a million bucks DX
i wish i had 3 wishes
i suppose we can count all the good things that have happened so far.
my dad went southeast, we think he is somewhere in north carolina
he hasnt come back
nobodys heard a word from him.
i guess.. thats.. good... yay..
compared to everything bad
it really isn't worth it though.
i
want
to
hit my head
against
a wall
its not fair. its to hard to deal with all at once.
I'm not even sleeping at night.
I don't want to hear it from you p*ssy little sack sucking public schooled pansy @sses ok?
do not sit there and tell me how f*cking easy this work is compared to yours because if i hear one little teensy whine about
"but we have to go to skewl when we sik sometwimes :(" or
"but ow work is hawder :( and we has wonger houwers"
then i wear i will punch you right in your moth*rf*ck*n face
that is bullshoot
i thank you kaplan academy
let me publicly THANK YOU HEARTILY
for what you have shown the world
in those commercials.
do you remember the kaplan academy guy
some old bald guy talks about how he enrolled his child in kaplan and how great it is then the kid goes off about how he got his own laptop and how cool it is to do it "on your own time"
then the dad says
"oh but don't worry, this isn't at all homeschooling like some parents worry about"
so thank you
finally
thats right get it through their heads
.. i dont even care what people think of homeschoolers as long as they dont thingk homeschooling and online school are the same thing because thats a mistake, its true they have similar qualities but they just aren't the same thing.
ok so now
i just wanna be alone lol
i wish everyone would go take an extra long trip to costco or something DX
ha i want to be alone right now but i suppose i could go take a walk
how do u wait for heaven
or keep your feet on the ground when you know u were born to fly.
lol
i've loved that song since i was little
maybe i need to chase someone lol
lol he would kill me XD
but
whatever happens next in this... exiting... new...chapter in my life.. >.>
i will wait for u angel o-o
and I'll learn how to be a good artist

i dont know what i was put here for anymore then you do, or the president does, or the ambassador, or the queen idk lol
i just know as long as i am here
I'm gonna spend my time the best way i can and try my hardest to help if i can, and try my hardest to learn as much as i can
before I'm outta here. :P
no matter how hard it gets
I can't turn back or anything once i die, and if i have a purpose in this world, I'm gonna fulfill it.
so wish me luck
i'll need it DX
peace to the people :P
Happy fkin 2011.