Chapter 1 - 9.2.09
Submitted February 10, 2009 Updated June 5, 2011 Status Incomplete | ...
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Chapter 1 - 9.2.09
Chapter 1 - 9.2.09
Monday, 9th February 2009
11.10 pm
I could cry right now. I love a good, emotional cry from time to time. There isnt one pure reason why I feel like crying; just everything builds up so quickly you cant deal with it all at once. The thing is, everything can change so suddenly. Thats what I hate about life, but we have to learn to deal with it. We all know this but it isnt that simple.
Theres this boy. Ive never liked him, but Im more than aware he likes me. But I wish he didnt. I cant believe what an idiot I am- I lead him on (just as I told my friend not to (hypocrite or what?)), then let him know I wanted him to leave me alone in the wrong way. Its been days now since weve even spoken. I cant help but think I did the wrong thing, even though it was causing me too much pain and hassle.
And theres this other boy. One whos liked me for ages now. Weve been talking for a lot lately and I felt like Id started falling for him. Then of course he goes and asks out a girl he barely knows. Plus, I have a felling she doesnt like him- I wish I could tell him so much but I cant bring myself to do it. I just dont want him to get hurt.
Whyd life have to be so complicated?
Quite often I fell as if Im constantly putting on a mask, I cant be myself or tell anything how it is. Just pretend it nothings there- it never happened. Its not a good way to live, I know that, but Ive become so accustom to it I cant stop. Ive covered up my emotions and feelings for so long now I fell its too late to change.
This guy I fell for, I cant get him out of my head. I cant help but notice when hes logged in. I cant stand it when his girlfriend is mentioned. It tears me up inside. I dont like him in that way- I just cant help but feel a little something.
Everythings turning around so fast. One of my best friends- I feel like Im loosing her. She isnt into the same things as me, and we dont really have anything to talk about. Shes going off with some ex-friends of mine (two people who cant stand being told what to do by someone they consider ;not good enough to talk to a popular person- even though they arent really popular they just like to think that) Pathetic and selfish I call it. In fact, all the popular kids I know dont have any real friends who would stand up for them, just fakes who want the easy way round life. Stuff them I say. My friends are my reason in life.
11.10 pm
I could cry right now. I love a good, emotional cry from time to time. There isnt one pure reason why I feel like crying; just everything builds up so quickly you cant deal with it all at once. The thing is, everything can change so suddenly. Thats what I hate about life, but we have to learn to deal with it. We all know this but it isnt that simple.
Theres this boy. Ive never liked him, but Im more than aware he likes me. But I wish he didnt. I cant believe what an idiot I am- I lead him on (just as I told my friend not to (hypocrite or what?)), then let him know I wanted him to leave me alone in the wrong way. Its been days now since weve even spoken. I cant help but think I did the wrong thing, even though it was causing me too much pain and hassle.
And theres this other boy. One whos liked me for ages now. Weve been talking for a lot lately and I felt like Id started falling for him. Then of course he goes and asks out a girl he barely knows. Plus, I have a felling she doesnt like him- I wish I could tell him so much but I cant bring myself to do it. I just dont want him to get hurt.
Whyd life have to be so complicated?
Quite often I fell as if Im constantly putting on a mask, I cant be myself or tell anything how it is. Just pretend it nothings there- it never happened. Its not a good way to live, I know that, but Ive become so accustom to it I cant stop. Ive covered up my emotions and feelings for so long now I fell its too late to change.
This guy I fell for, I cant get him out of my head. I cant help but notice when hes logged in. I cant stand it when his girlfriend is mentioned. It tears me up inside. I dont like him in that way- I just cant help but feel a little something.
Everythings turning around so fast. One of my best friends- I feel like Im loosing her. She isnt into the same things as me, and we dont really have anything to talk about. Shes going off with some ex-friends of mine (two people who cant stand being told what to do by someone they consider ;not good enough to talk to a popular person- even though they arent really popular they just like to think that) Pathetic and selfish I call it. In fact, all the popular kids I know dont have any real friends who would stand up for them, just fakes who want the easy way round life. Stuff them I say. My friends are my reason in life.
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shademaster10 on February 10, 2009, 2:07:09 AM
sorry, the ' <---- things arent showing ):