Chapter 1 - Hole in my Brain.

Right now I honestly believe...
There's a hole in my brain.
Not a physical hole.
But an abyss, a dark empty place.
Just like a hole.
Something was there once.
Now that something is missing; erased; gone.
It was part of me; something important; something special.
Maybe that's why I can't be happy for just one day.
Maybe that's why I can't control my emotions.
Maybe that's why I've been putting myself down the way I do.
This hole in my brain...
Maybe, just maybe...
Someday it won't be empty anymore.
Maybe I can fill it up with new memories.
But I'm just filling the void.
That special place will never be the same again.
And this hole in my brain...
For now...
It will keep growing and growing until I can fill it up enough to stop.
It'll keep growing until my brain is empty if I can't fill it up.
All those happy memories will be dead.
And I won't be the same.
Change...
Change hurts.
And this hole in my brain is changing me more than anything.

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