Merry Christmas to you too
Blog Entry: Merry Christmas to you too
Blog Entry: Merry Christmas to you too
Posted by: ShamefulMetaphors
Posted: December 26, 2014, 8:43:16 PM
Mood: ok
Listening To: 5:19 - Matt Wertz
Posted: December 26, 2014, 8:43:16 PM
Mood: ok
Listening To: 5:19 - Matt Wertz
"Hello.. how are you? Have you been alright? Through all those lonely nights.. that's what I'd say.. I'd tell you everything.. if you'd pick up that telephone.. Hey, how you feelin'? Are you still the same? Don't you realize the things we did were all for real, not a dream? I just can't believe they've all faded out of view.."
Electric Light Orchestra came back into my life this year. "Telephone Line" has always had great meaning to me.. but listening to it now, I feel much more connected to it. I tried messaging lizzy yesterday? The day before? *sighs a bit* I mean, I sincerely meant to wish her a merry christmas.. I really wish she was around, because I know she'd understand me much more than any of my other friends with a lot of the problems I have. Not that I want her to fix them, no no. I just... like talking to someone who'se not getting paid for it? Someone who'se been there with me through thick n' thin..
I know I'm pretty pathetic.. still trying to hold on.. I've been trying my hardest to be happy.. my parents have been debating on sending me out to one of those programs lizzy was in for a while.. *has a small smile* I was so worried about her when she was gone... I really do hope she keeps her word and talks to me after the year has gone full circle.. I would do anything for her, ahand I mean it.. I know it was shaky.. when I left.. I just, felt like she didn't want anything to do with me.. so I freaked and thought "Well, I'd better not leave anything here that belongs to me to prevent her being reminded of me".. I still read the letter she gave me before I left.. and she said we'd be in touch..
I miss her so, so much.. and even though it hurts, and the grip is getting tougher to hold on to, I'm moving forward. She's always going to be in my heart, and in my thoughts. And as silly as it sounds, I highly doubt there's going to be anyone else, whether a man or woman who can fill this gap I have left in my heart..
I have hopes, and I rly want them to come through.. I rly do..
"Ok, so no one's answering.. but can't you just let ring a little longer, longer, longer..? I'll just sit tight.. Through shadows of the night. Let it ring forever more.."
Electric Light Orchestra came back into my life this year. "Telephone Line" has always had great meaning to me.. but listening to it now, I feel much more connected to it. I tried messaging lizzy yesterday? The day before? *sighs a bit* I mean, I sincerely meant to wish her a merry christmas.. I really wish she was around, because I know she'd understand me much more than any of my other friends with a lot of the problems I have. Not that I want her to fix them, no no. I just... like talking to someone who'se not getting paid for it? Someone who'se been there with me through thick n' thin..
I know I'm pretty pathetic.. still trying to hold on.. I've been trying my hardest to be happy.. my parents have been debating on sending me out to one of those programs lizzy was in for a while.. *has a small smile* I was so worried about her when she was gone... I really do hope she keeps her word and talks to me after the year has gone full circle.. I would do anything for her, ahand I mean it.. I know it was shaky.. when I left.. I just, felt like she didn't want anything to do with me.. so I freaked and thought "Well, I'd better not leave anything here that belongs to me to prevent her being reminded of me".. I still read the letter she gave me before I left.. and she said we'd be in touch..
I miss her so, so much.. and even though it hurts, and the grip is getting tougher to hold on to, I'm moving forward. She's always going to be in my heart, and in my thoughts. And as silly as it sounds, I highly doubt there's going to be anyone else, whether a man or woman who can fill this gap I have left in my heart..
I have hopes, and I rly want them to come through.. I rly do..
"Ok, so no one's answering.. but can't you just let ring a little longer, longer, longer..? I'll just sit tight.. Through shadows of the night. Let it ring forever more.."