Chapter 7 - Haunted BellaXEdward

It had taken me many mouths to keep myself stable.After he left,I felt like killing myself.Every time I almost did I would hear him.I was haunted by him.Yet he said"It will be if I never existed".The words echoed in my head.Today was the day I could go cliff diving.Jacob helped me and keept me from sucide.

I walked into my car and turned the radio as I drove to La push.ars fell from my eyes and I stopped my car.Then blacked out....

Louder, louder
The voices in my head
Whispers taunting
All the things you said
Faster the days go by and I'm still
Stuck in this moment of wanting you here
Time
In the blink of an eye
You held my hand, you held me tight
Now you're gone
And I'm still crying
Shocked, broken
I'm dying inside

Where are you?
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me

Shadows linger
Only to my eye
I see you, I feel you
Don't leave my side
It's not fair
Just when I found my world
They took you, they broke you, they tore out your heart




I remembered it too well...My loss...Depression....I was trapped in the moment he left....

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"Bella I don't want you to come with me."

"You...don't...want me?"I tried out the words,confused by the way they sounded,place in order.

"No".

"If that's what you want."

He nodded.

My whole body went numb...

"Take care of yourself-for me".

"I will."I whispered.

"I promise that this will be the last time you'll ever see me. I won't come back.I won't put you though anything like this again.You can go on with your life without any interferance from me..It will be as if I never existed".

I could hear the blood pounding faster than normal behind my ears.His voice sounded farer away.

He tooka step away from me."That's everything,I suppose.We won't bother you again."

"Alice isn't coming back?"

He shock his head slowly."No there all gone.I stayed behind to tell you goodbye."

"Goodbye Bella"he said in the same quiet, peacefull voice he smirked slighty.

I miss you, you hurt me
You left with a smile
Mistaken, your sadness
Was hiding inside
Now all that's left
Are the pieces to find
The mystery you kept
The soul behind a guise


"Wait!"I choked out.

His cold hands locked around my wrists and pinned them to my sides.He leaned down and pressed his lips very lighty to my forehead for the breifest second.My eyes closed.

"Take care of yourself."he breathed,cool against my skin.

There was light,unatural breeze.My eyes flashed open.The small vine maple shuddered with the gentle wind of his passage.

He was gone.

Love,Life,meaning....over.
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Where was Edward.The hold burned me.Tears dripped from my eyes.I grabbed a knife from my glovebox.

Where are you
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me

Why did you go?
All these questions run through my mind
I wish I couldn't feel at all
Let me be numb
I'm starting to fall

Where are you?
I need you
Don't leave me here on my own
Speak to me
Be near me
I can't survive unless I know you're with me

Where are you?
Where are you?

You were smiling

I took the knife and cut my vain and knew no more......

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