Chapter 1 - Empty

A shell covers my true emotions
Inside I feel empty
But alas, to the world
I put on my shell that is like a mask
My mask hides my true feelings
Feelings of depression and emptiness
I push those behind me feeling better
She comes back and my heart skips a beat
My shell becomes weak
And my true emotions shine through
I try to hide them
The more I try the harder it becomes
I love you a lot but I still hurt
My heart was broken
And is still in repair

We are back together
Emptiness and depression are gone
Your smiling faces brings happiness
And your sadness beings me sadness
Your mind was torn and in turmoil
The decision was made
And we are once again the term every guy hates
We are “Just friends”
Now my depression starts again as I take a walk
My thoughts are everywhere
Thoughts of anger, sadness, and grieve
“Why…what did I do” I cry to myself
Why does everyone I love leave me?
Is there just something wrong with me as a person?
Are questions that go through my head
All can be ended in a swift cut of a knife
All my thoughts stopped as my life could pour away
I cry at this thought, I cry about what happen
My tears stream my face
As I run full speed back home
My mind stops in the burst and my mind relaxes
I return to my shell of torment
And wait for another happiness to come
And wait for the awful pain of loneliness once more

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