Chapter 9 - Dear Diary
Submitted November 11, 2007 Updated August 13, 2008 Status Incomplete | Poems that i have made depending on my mood but are somewhat depressing so your warned
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Chapter 9 - Dear Diary
Chapter 9 - Dear Diary
Dear Diary
Where to start? Everything has been a pretty fine; nothing much has been worrying me… Well… That’s kinda a lie I guess. I have been worrying over something. Something I normally don’t worry about since there never really been a reason for me to worry about. Until now…
Out of everything that I’ve ever gone through this is the one that stumps me >< It’s just the most annoying thing in the world at this moment. It’s bugging me to hell and back again. I always keep asking myself if I deserve it. I’m I actually of some worth like people say I am? It’s has always been the worst habit that I’ve had and I do know that it bugs people when I do ask… But I can’t help it. What is it that makes me of worth to people? Am no one special. I scare almost every one. So am I a monster? If that is so why did they say I deserve everything?
I REALLY don’t know what I should do. I’m not used to this kind of treatment. It confuses me to no end. I have more questions than answers. My head is fuzzy even now and I’m developing a major headache. Urgh why did this have to happen to me? Why did people suddenly start to take an interest in me?
I deserve no more than I am worth, If I think I’m worth nothing then I don’t deserve anything, But If I’m worth the world to someone then I’d deserve the world. Too many factors of the other person play against what I used to think. I don’t like it. I was used to just being of no worth… being alone was something I was used to. Why did that have to change? A monster, a monster that’s all I am. Not many people can change my mind about that. Even if you changed the name or change the look, there still is a monster. Why did I have to feel that feeling that’s so special? Why… Why should a Monster, like me, be allowed to Love?
I know this isn't a poem but it's an outlet, and it's kinda like a diary entry but not an actual one. yeah I confuse you don't I? ^^U
Where to start? Everything has been a pretty fine; nothing much has been worrying me… Well… That’s kinda a lie I guess. I have been worrying over something. Something I normally don’t worry about since there never really been a reason for me to worry about. Until now…
Out of everything that I’ve ever gone through this is the one that stumps me >< It’s just the most annoying thing in the world at this moment. It’s bugging me to hell and back again. I always keep asking myself if I deserve it. I’m I actually of some worth like people say I am? It’s has always been the worst habit that I’ve had and I do know that it bugs people when I do ask… But I can’t help it. What is it that makes me of worth to people? Am no one special. I scare almost every one. So am I a monster? If that is so why did they say I deserve everything?
I REALLY don’t know what I should do. I’m not used to this kind of treatment. It confuses me to no end. I have more questions than answers. My head is fuzzy even now and I’m developing a major headache. Urgh why did this have to happen to me? Why did people suddenly start to take an interest in me?
I deserve no more than I am worth, If I think I’m worth nothing then I don’t deserve anything, But If I’m worth the world to someone then I’d deserve the world. Too many factors of the other person play against what I used to think. I don’t like it. I was used to just being of no worth… being alone was something I was used to. Why did that have to change? A monster, a monster that’s all I am. Not many people can change my mind about that. Even if you changed the name or change the look, there still is a monster. Why did I have to feel that feeling that’s so special? Why… Why should a Monster, like me, be allowed to Love?
I know this isn't a poem but it's an outlet, and it's kinda like a diary entry but not an actual one. yeah I confuse you don't I? ^^U
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Scoot on January 23, 2008, 12:59:03 AM
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if i had to give you what you deserve...i would never be able to...you deserve more than i can give and no way are you a monsterTerra_Kitsune on January 23, 2008, 5:24:42 PM
There is different ways to what people think a Monster is just like everybody has a different idea on what an Angel is likeWhiteIceSpirit on January 22, 2008, 2:03:05 AM
JO your nothing like a monster *waves arms about* not like a monster nope nope nope *shakes head*they people are just silly billys who just don't understand ><
your a lovely person and have warmth like no other. x3 your the greatest person i've ever met x3
Terra_Kitsune on January 23, 2008, 5:16:55 PM
trying to cheer me up... not really working *waves finger*