Chapter 1 - I don't want to be this person

I don’t want to be this person
So broken, so frail, so thin,
I don’t want to be this person, never seen from within
I don’t want to be this person
Hypocrite
Judgmental
dog
I don’t want to be this person
Codependent for everything
I hate the way things have turned out though I guess it could be worse
Can’t come up with a line to rhyme with this verse
I hate what I’ve become
So stupid, so weak, so sick
I hate this judgmental world that I live in
I hate how at every word I tare myself down
I hate how at every turn I run myself into the ground
I hate how whenever I try for a better day
Something always gets in the way
Makes it impossible to get any better
Can’t even hide in my battered shelter
This mind is torn damaged and other
I wish I could describe what other means
But I wont bother
Some things can’t be explained
Like why I keep saying
I want to go home when I’m there
what am I missing
Why is it when I have something important to say
I find I just don’t know the words
Why is it so hard
Why do I doubt my self worth
This isn’t who I am
So why am I hear
This isn’t who I am
Ruled by fear
This isn’t who I am
I know I can’t be perfect
I’m at least that wise
This isn’t who I am
Why am I someone I despise

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