Chapter 1 - I Feel Nothing

I am sorry.
I wish i could feel the same way you do.
Have my heart pound in anxiety.
To have the warm feeling of love,
embracing every fiber of my being,
to swoon and to smile at the very sight of your face-to hear your sandpaper voice.

Yet. I feel nothing.
My icy heart remains as cold as the winter snow.
Never warming.
Frozen.
You cannot melt it.
Every text you mechanically send.
You always say the words i never wanted to read nor hear.
Thoes two words.
"I love you"

They Never get returned.
Like the phonecalls.
All i say is "take care"
A statement i truly mean.
Yet always gets ignored.

I feel nothing for you.
At then end of the day-after every phonecall and text measage-the feeling never grows.
We met only once.
Once was enough for you.
You want to have a converstation.
Yet never let me get a word in.
Nor humor me with questions.
No.
I will not dwell on the little things.

Please just listen.
Your boundless kindness is my poison.
It kills me inside.
Slowly.

I Feel Nothing for you.
No single emotion,
nor tiny-attomic-speck.
I cannot love someone like you.
I am sorry.
I do not expect you to forgive me.

Now let us depart.
Go our seprate ways.
Drift away.
Feeling nothing.
No tears.
No remorce.
No sorrow.
Nothing.
Goodbye forever.
It is over before it even began.

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