ShockRat23

I know you haven't been on in a while... Is worrying me

Thank you, Lori. :) Happy belated Valentin Day to you to! Sorry for my little reply. I haven't been feeling myself these last few days, so I've had to take it easy. Not long till I can get scanned now. Only a few more days. Am a bit nerveous, but it's to be expected.

Thankfully I haven't had so much trouble with my migraines this week, and my papa bought me a a special pillow called Chillow to help me with my night sleep. It works surprisingly well and keeps my headaches at bay. Though I have to be a little careful with it, so it doesn't spring any leaks.

So how was your day, hun?

It's no worry at all. I hope you get some answers soon.

I'm glad to hear that! Migraines suck... Big time

It was great. I've got a dance tonight for this club im I'm. Is called HERO club. We work with special ed kids to help them feel... Normal I guess. Let them have fun and be a normal high school kid. We take them to movies and bowling and ball games. I'm excited

Sounds like allot of fun that dance club. Maybe when I get better, then I'll start taking dancing lessons myself. I want to dance like mad and use my body to the fullest, but at the moment I have to be a little careful...

And it's nice of you to help out those kids. Ain't no fun being treated differently, so it's nice to relax and take it easy for once without being judged.

btw, I'm back from my scan today. Everything went well, and I met this really nice fellow who I could've sworn almost looked like Daniel Craig. I was worried that my chronic fatigue would interfere today, since I had some heavy breathing yesterday, but thankfully my breathing was normal.

Though I have to wait a week till I can get the results from my doctor. Still, am glad the MR scan went alright. Hopefully I can diagnosed soon and get some treatment to what I have. :)

It was a blast. I love those kids so much! They are the sweetest most amazing group of kids I've ever had the pleasure of knowing

That's good I really hope things would out well. I hope you get what you need. I really do

Sooooo I gots a date!

Happy valentines day!

Those are incredibly simple, kind, and inspirational words you gave Pixie. It seems you have been through a lot. Would you mind explaining to me why you feel you do not have much longer to live?

Thank you Luckylace. :) It's awesome I could meet you. Yeah, been through allot of bad stuff in my life, but I've left it behind me now, and made peace with myself, so now I'm going to try to make people as happy as I can. :)

I don't really know about my health to be honest. >< This whole episode has had me completely confused. Yesterday I actually thought I was going to pass on, but when I went to a medical exam, then the doctor couldn't find anything wrong with me. She just said I just had high anxiety. Though I think Falconlobo pointed out to me that I could have fibromyalgia. Allot of the symptoms there are very accurate to what I've experienced these past months, but I have to go to get an MRi scan to get a 100% clarification to what I have. I'm hoping it's just that, and not the other stuff that I fear... :/

So I was listening to If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickelback, the whole optimism and happiness made me thing of you

*think

Kewl, I'm listening to Bobby Brown: We're Back from the Ghostbusters 2 ost. lol, I'm such a nostalgic geek, and it fills me with power that I'm going to beat whatever bad stuff comes my way. :)

So how was your day Lori?

Pretty good. Been really bored. My sister has strep so I'm taking care of her, watching tangled

Did you hear tht Whitney died??

Sorry to hear that about your sisters condition. Hope she gets better soon. :)

btw, kewl that you're watching Tangled. I need to see that one too someday. Everybody is always bragging how awesome it is. :p

Yeah, and I heard about Whitney. :( Really sad... it makes me appreciate even more how precious life is...

It's ok. She has either fibromyalgia or lupus so she gets sick a lot.

I love it! It's so cute!

I personally think she killed herself. But I'm probably just looking too deep into it

i kind of thought that for a bit too she had to much on her plate and wanted a way out

I know right!

yeh they say she drowned in the bathtub and overdosed

Good morning my friend

http://www.webmd.com/fibromyalgia/understanding-fibromyalgia-symptoms are you sure you don't have this maybe?

also men might get it too i don't know

i know that some women might get it too i know some one who is female on another site who has it sorry about your mom too

Yeah, I'm starting think that it could be it, cause it changes allot. Earlier today I felt wonderful, and now later this evening my head has a terrible migraine again, and I have difficulty controlling my right arm. Yesterday my symptoms were even stronger, and more terrifying, though thankfully my visit to the clinic helped ease my mind that my body is at least in fine condition, except for a little high blood pressure.

But... there are some other symptoms that still worry me that may not be related to this disorder... but I can't really do anything till I get that test taken. :/ Oh well, I'll get to the bottom of this regardless the outcome. :)

And don't worry about my mom. I've left that life behind me now, and it was awesome I could meet you Falconlobo. :) *hugs*

you're welcome and i hope your appointment goes alright

do you hate me?D:

No no no, Pixie. I don't hate you! :o I had a small medical emergency yesterday, so I had to rush to the clinic to get myself examined. Thankfully the doctor couldn't find anything wrong with me after doing numerous tests. She claimed it was just my high anxiety that made me feel that way.

I was going to write a reply sooner, but it was over 1 am when I got back after sitting 4-5 hours at the clinic, so I was pretty beat. Plus I've slept really bad this last period of time, so it takes it's strain my on my health. Sorry. :/

This whole thing has me pretty shock up. Thankfully I'm feeling better today after a good nights sleep. :)

are u upset with me? u havent replied D:

i dont want u to die D: we just became friends...and ur awesome...

No, I don't think I'm going to die now. :) I think the article Falconlobo posted may be more correct to the condition I have, though I still need to take the MRi test just to be 100% sure. :)

btw, thank you so much Falconlobo! You've given me the extra boost I needed, and I can feel my life energy returning to me! :D

I got a suprise I'm working on for you, though it may a take a little while. I'm not as tough as I used to be, but it's not big deal. As long I can stay live one way or another, then I'm content with life! :)

Thanks, you're all awesome! I love you all!

good! ;D *hugs* your awesome :3
is the suprise for me or falconlobo? xD

I'll make one for both of you, since you're both so awesome. :D
But I don't think I'll do it tonight, since my migraine is giving me trouble again, and I have difficult getting any work done. >< But I promise I'll get it done soon. Just you wait!

cool^^ not the migraine though

Darn, I had a written a reply, but I accidently deleted it. ><
Well, anyway. I think I have to postpone a little on your gifts till I get can scanned and diagnosed to what I have. I've started work on them a little, but I have a hard time concentrating and getting them done. My nerves are a bit frazzled by this whole health issue of mine. I also have chronic fatigue that makes even getting up for a short walk a very taxing labor. :/

So I apologize to you both Pixie and Falconlobo. I promise I'll get them done as soon as I can when this whole health issue of mine is resovled. ;)

it's fine take your time rl matters take priority

I'm so sorry....

Don't be sad. :) I'm still hanging in there, and I'm not going to let this thing beat me yet! You're awesome so Wildcat. I'm glad I got the opportunity to meet you. You give me the extra willpower to stay alive. :)

Thank you?.. That meant a lot to me hun

I am great. Thank you for asking. Exhausted as all holy hell but great. How are you my friend?

A little exhausted. I think I have to go lie down a little. >< Sorry. I need to save my strength, so I can continue staying alive. ;) Anyway, I put up some of my doodles, so I hope they get A-OK'ed soon. :D

What's wrong? And it's no problem at all, I just am an insomniac.

It's my head. Something inside is messing with my body allot. >< So I have to take it a little easy till I can get to a doctor soon. :(

And I'm sorry about your condition. :/ I think I've become insomniac myself this last period of time. lol, and my avatar is a girl called Insomania. She's insomanic herself, and I actually planned to use her in a webcomic. :) Maybe I'll post some pages of it later.

What is it that's wrong? I know a good bit about medicine, I wanna be a surgeon.

It's not a big deal really. And that really good. If you do it I cant wait to see it!

I've become weaker in my arms and legs, and I can't walk as far I'd like. Also my innards are acting abnormally. ><
I'm mostly worried about my heart. It's not acting like it's usual self. :\

I'm so sorry. Do you know the specific condition or are you seeing a diagnostician?

I think it's cancer is what I've got... located on the left side my head. I'm supposed to be sent MRi scan next saturday, but... I think it might be getting more dangerous the longer I wait.

I sent an E-mail to my doctor describing my condition. Maybe he could give me some advice what to do for now. :/

thank you so much for what you said..<3 it means a lot..
I'm Janetta, but you can call me pixie (which you have xD)

Ur welcome, Pixie. ;)

=)
how are you, my friend?

I'm hanging in there, though am worried about my health. I hope I can at least get the chance to hang out as much as I can on here, and try to post some doodles. :)

Wow, I'm sorry I didn't see your comments earlier. :) Hiya Falconlobo and WildcatGirl! Hey guys! It's strange how we've only just met, but I may already soon be forced to say goodbye already. It's sad really. I wish I could post some doodles, but I think I'd better not. Not now anyway. Maybe I'll try posting my stuff later after I see how I feel. :)

btw, Falconlobo and Wildcat. You guys are awesome. ^_^

Peace.

hi are you sure you have cancer?

Thanks dude. That made my morning. Yu should post doodles! Om me if you wanna talk

I'm Lori. Pm me or something. You seem really cool, I'd like to get to know you

Hey

hello^^