Chapter 1 - Tears
Submitted August 20, 2006 Updated August 20, 2006 Status Incomplete | Losing someone is perfectly norman, it is part of life. Everyone handles it differently. Death brings fear to me. However I will write something like this just to clear my mind. So here is a little something I wrote after losing someone close to my heart.
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Chapter 1 - Tears
Chapter 1 - Tears
Tears from my heart spill down my cheeks.
I lost someone close to me yet again.
Everyone that I get close to, I lose somehow.
I lost my mother to alcohol.
I lost my sister to my mother.
I lost my grandfather to stupidity.
I lost my other grandfather to death.
I lost both grandmothers to death.
I lost my half sister and nephews to long distances.
I lost my father to death.
I lost my adopted family to problems.
I lost Paige to death.
I lost brandon to suicide.
Who am I going to lose next?
I am now engaged and I fear losing him too.
No matter how I feel,
No matter what my heart tells me,
No matter how many tears I cry,
No matter what I say,
I fear losing him too.
I don't know to what yet... guess that's a mystery.
But through all those loses, my heart cried tears.
My heart just breaks a breaks a little bit more every time.
And fear makes it break more.
If I lose everyone, then why stay on this planet?
If you lose everyone you have in your heart,why stay?
If you have nothing left to live for, why live?
I wake up every morning because of my fiance.
He is the reason I work through every day.
He is the reason I come home at night.
He is the reason I smile.
He is the reason I laugh.
He is the reason I love.
But in the end, tears still run down my cheek.
Can someone tell me why?
I lost someone close to me yet again.
Everyone that I get close to, I lose somehow.
I lost my mother to alcohol.
I lost my sister to my mother.
I lost my grandfather to stupidity.
I lost my other grandfather to death.
I lost both grandmothers to death.
I lost my half sister and nephews to long distances.
I lost my father to death.
I lost my adopted family to problems.
I lost Paige to death.
I lost brandon to suicide.
Who am I going to lose next?
I am now engaged and I fear losing him too.
No matter how I feel,
No matter what my heart tells me,
No matter how many tears I cry,
No matter what I say,
I fear losing him too.
I don't know to what yet... guess that's a mystery.
But through all those loses, my heart cried tears.
My heart just breaks a breaks a little bit more every time.
And fear makes it break more.
If I lose everyone, then why stay on this planet?
If you lose everyone you have in your heart,why stay?
If you have nothing left to live for, why live?
I wake up every morning because of my fiance.
He is the reason I work through every day.
He is the reason I come home at night.
He is the reason I smile.
He is the reason I laugh.
He is the reason I love.
But in the end, tears still run down my cheek.
Can someone tell me why?
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hirataitokyo on August 21, 2006, 3:52:32 AM
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Wow that's really, really deep. I feel sorry for you.