Chapter 1 - My First “Relationship”
Submitted September 12, 2004 Updated September 12, 2004 Status Incomplete | a poem i wrote when i got home after a devastating date. A date that made me decide to let him go, and not waste any of our time on something that would end up nowhere.
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Chapter 1 - My First “Relationship”
Chapter 1 - My First “Relationship”
My First “Relationship”
By Sophie Reznyak
How do I know he really cares about me?
How do I know if he even cares if I’m there?
How do I know if he even notices me?
How do I know if he really loves me?
How do I recognize his dedication?
How do I even know if he is honest?
How can I trust him with all those lies?
How can I believe what he says?
Why didn’t I listen to the warnings?
Why did I have to listen to myself?
Why did I bother hoping that there was something
where there was nothing?
Why did I leave my peaceful single self,
and decided to date?
Why was I so dumb and clueless?
My brain left me and my heart took over.
I let it all happen right before my eyes.
I hoped that it was just me.
But it wasn’t.
There never was anything there.
I was being led on.
Led on by someone who I thought I could trust.
Someone who I thought I could believe.
Someone who I thought I could love.
I was wrong.
I was being confused.
I thought I would get what I wanted.
But it ended up not working.
It ended making me feel like a fool.
Making me feel worthless.
Making me feel betrayed.
Making me feel unworthy of love.
Making me want to hide in my closet, and never come out.
Making me want to cry until no tears were left.
But time heals all pain and wounds.
I’ll soon find out.
By Sophie Reznyak
How do I know he really cares about me?
How do I know if he even cares if I’m there?
How do I know if he even notices me?
How do I know if he really loves me?
How do I recognize his dedication?
How do I even know if he is honest?
How can I trust him with all those lies?
How can I believe what he says?
Why didn’t I listen to the warnings?
Why did I have to listen to myself?
Why did I bother hoping that there was something
where there was nothing?
Why did I leave my peaceful single self,
and decided to date?
Why was I so dumb and clueless?
My brain left me and my heart took over.
I let it all happen right before my eyes.
I hoped that it was just me.
But it wasn’t.
There never was anything there.
I was being led on.
Led on by someone who I thought I could trust.
Someone who I thought I could believe.
Someone who I thought I could love.
I was wrong.
I was being confused.
I thought I would get what I wanted.
But it ended up not working.
It ended making me feel like a fool.
Making me feel worthless.
Making me feel betrayed.
Making me feel unworthy of love.
Making me want to hide in my closet, and never come out.
Making me want to cry until no tears were left.
But time heals all pain and wounds.
I’ll soon find out.
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